I’m lost.
I’m used to having a sense of direction in my life. Family, friends, love and
education are all contributing factors to my always eccentric world, they’re
all I concentrate on and they’re all I need. For the past few years I have
coasted along the social highway of friendships, love, and family, always
knowing what I want, perhaps not getting it, but I do know what I want. People
come and go, I make the wrong decisions, or less frequently, the right ones but
people still go. Now I talk to people that I’ve known of for years yet never
took the time out of my deserted schedule to actually speak to them; and people
used to be my world, but now I wouldn’t even look at them in the street. For
the first time in years I have no compass. I have no idea which way to go or
what to search for because everything is toppling around me, three of my four
life factors are slowly being crushed before me leaving me helpless. Everything
I’ve reached for melted in front of me and the occasional ones that didn’t; weren’t
what I wanted. Education bores me, but it is necessary and seems to be the only
path that is staying stable. So I ask this; where do I go? Because I am lost.
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