27 December 2011

A Proposal.







One foot pushes of the ground after the other, flinging dust and rubble behind him. His stride length begins to stretch as he springs from his toes. The man begins to speed up, now racing against himself. His face red with fury, teeth gritted, his whole body pushing its limits. In his hand he holds it, the key to her heart, the only thing that can save what he has. He can feel sweat on his brow, he's panting now, already exhausted but still less than halfway. He wipes the sweat away, spits the thick mucus from his throat. He eyes are wide, restless, darting one way and another, trying to figure out everything in one instant.
Half way, he darts across a large road, its clear, he checked. Time for his shortcut, he has little time left. He dives through a hole in the fence as he finished crossing the road. Bringing him to the top of a hill, a large hill, a rather steep hill. The man catches his breath, taking a 20 second break, before lowering himself and sliding down. He begins with the the left foot in front as he slides, then the lower half of his right leg to keep balance, his smart trousers getting torn and dirty. About halfway down he slips onto his rear and rolls a few times before stopping at the bottom of the large hill, the man now completely covered in dirt, the prize still in his hand. He stands up, pulling himself away from the cloud of dust and runs again, dodging trees and fox holes. The light is scarce through the thick canopy but he can see well enough to get to the other side of the woods without falling again.
As he does reach the end of the wood he reaches a small country road, without the use of grit, the road is icy and covered in a thick snow. the city had the snow cleaned away on roads and pavements, and barely any reached the floor of the woods, but here was a completely different place. All he had to do was follow the road until he reached the house of his lover, he was about three quarters of the way now. He runs, watching his step as he strides beside the road. The road is reasonably straight other than the one turn that hes coming up too, and another about a mile back. As he skids around the corner he sees a bright light, a car. He hears the screech of brakes. The skidding tires. The thud as the side of the car bonnet hits his legs and throws him over the car. The second thud as the car hits a tree.
His eyes open, his vision slowly focuses. A woman, tall, stands over him, but its not clear enough to see. Shes on the phone, he hears her talking. He tries to move, but his legs wont, and his arms are too heavy. He lies, weak, in agony. His fist still clenched, he wont let anything happen to what he holds. He'd give his life to protect it. His focus is back, he looks down at his dirty, blood stained suit. His legs in positions they shouldn't be in. He swallows a mouthful of sick and blood, then his view returns to the girl on the phone, she seems hurt, but not too badly. A limp, blood on her face.A familiar face, he begins to recognise her, realise who hes just been run over by.
His heart slows. His girlfriend, stood, in tears, fearing for him. He coughs, signalling her over, unable to lift his arm, he releases the object in his hand, a box, small, and nods towards it. She bends over, picks it up, opens it. A ring, diamond, rather large, sat between two rubys. Her face lights up, she bends over, thanks the man with a kiss. The pressure of lips on his aching face hurts, but he grits through, pushing a smile. He had planned on a romantic proposal, before she had left for her business trip, but this was the best he could do. As they were together smiling, waiting, the mans eyes close, he drifts out of consciousness. The ringing of sirens in his ears.

26 December 2011

Ambition.







I wonder whether I'm ambitious, like actual ambition. There's a question asked once too often, what do you want to be when your older? It really gets at me, mainly cause I struggled to answer it. I would be happy working in a small shop, just another worker in the hive, getting to help people day to day. I didn't feel there was much else I could be, sure if I put my mind to it I could wrestle through uni and make something of myself, but I didn't really want too. I never really knew what I'd do after that, I'd feel lost, being on my own after such a long time in education. Struggling to find a path, I made one up for myself, it was a path I thought would keep me happy. It did, for a while, but now I've spent time thinking. Now my ambitions are clear. I think I figured what I really want. I think I know what I want to be.
I want to be a father. I want a family, a wife, kids, maybe one day, grand kids. I want to watch them grow up, watch them develop, watch them smile. I want to be happy, to enjoy each day and the things that each day brings. I want a simple life, but one in which I can keep my wife and kids smiling. I want to live for them. Is that ambition, I guess, maybe. I feel as if its a fitting path, a path that would keep me happy, keep me stable. I envy those I see with the life I want. Surely that's expected, especially at this time of year, family's happy, children smiling, parents smiling. I want that, I want to smile with my kids and my wife, I want to make my wife and kids smile. I want to give them everything I have to give, I'm willing to give them everything I can give.
I just want to be happy, to be simple, to have something meaningful, something strong.
I want to know what its all like.

Brake Out.








Listening, each second passing increases my heart rate. I wait for the signal.
Thud.
I stand up and run.
The chair at the table flies out from underneath me.
I spot my partner, imitating my moves at the other side of the mess hall.
Two seconds it takes for me to reach the guard, with his back turned.
One second to take his baton from his belt, and an extra to disable him; he hits the floor.
A second thud as my partners guard also hits the floor.
Recalling the plan in my brain, I search the body for keys.
My partner rallies the troops.
The prisoners follow me.
Through the door into the corridor, stop, spotted.
Five prisoners leap forward at the two guards.
Four seconds before they reach them.
Two tasers released after one and a half seconds, two prisoners drop, thud.
The three press forward, one gets knocked out by a fist, the other two prevail.
Forward and a right turn into a corridor of cells.
Thirty meters long, two meters wide, seven cells on each side.
An extra soldier in each.
Cheers.
Behind us, scream.
Three guards subdue five of our twenty team-mates.
My partner attacks them, I run forward to the tiny room at the end of the corridor.
Four and a half seconds and I’m at the door.
Smash it open, one second.
The guard turns, baton to the stomach.
He’s hunched over, I bring the baton up, and thud, he hits the floor.
Find the button, press it, the cells open.
Cheers.
It all takes Four seconds.
I pick up a mobile phone from the target that’s on the floor.
Dial a memorised number, call for our van.
Into the corridor, am I’m tackled into the next room by my partner and lots of prisoners.
Four guards await, one second and one is upon me.
Hits me in the nose and picks me up, three seconds.
I struggle and he drops me, thud, I hit the floor. Two seconds.
Swipe at the back of his knees and he joins me, another two.
And an extra second is what it takes to knock him out.
Stand up and look around the room, orange jumpsuits on limp bodies scatter the floor.
Six prisoners stand above me.
They help reassure me, my partner pushes us onwards.
Out the main entrance.
Fresh air.
Two guard towers, each side of the gate to freedom.
Each contains two men.
A cabin, contains the warden.
It’s night time.
The crowd of eight heroes split into four, and run down each side, eight seconds.
Avoid the searchlight.
Only one can get up the tower, one must take out two.
The biggest prisoner, an ex bouncer ascends the ladders on the left tower.
I ascend the right.
My partner waits at the bottom.
Eleven painful seconds until I reach the top.
Swiftly I raise the baton at it reaches the first guards helmet, one second.
He’s not out for the count.
The second guard wraps his leather arms around me, trapping my torso and lifting me up.
Mistake.
I lash out at the first guard with both my feet.
He topples over the edge, thud, three seconds.
I flip the second guard over my head; he hits the floor after one second, thud.
It takes me another sparing second to stamp on his head.
Broken neck.
Descending the ladders, seven seconds.
My partner grins at me.
The big prisoner jumps from halfway down the ladders, blood on his face.
Sneak around the tower.
Get to the cabin door, slowly open it, creak, two seconds.
The warden is asleep.
My partner creeps in and accurately steals a set of keys from her desk.
Leaves the cabin after eight seconds.
Quickly stride to the gates.
Open them.
Creak.
Shoulder to shoulder, my partner and I taste freedom.
He beams at me before a gunshot.
Blood trickles down my partners face, staining gleeful expression as it turns to stone.
My smile evaporates.
Thud.
I get picked up by the large prisoner and he runs, thrown in a van.
Despair.
Engine erupts into life.
Escape in Two Minutes.

 >G

23 December 2011

Lost








I’m lost. I’m used to having a sense of direction in my life. Family, friends, love and education are all contributing factors to my always eccentric world, they’re all I concentrate on and they’re all I need. For the past few years I have coasted along the social highway of friendships, love, and family, always knowing what I want, perhaps not getting it, but I do know what I want. People come and go, I make the wrong decisions, or less frequently, the right ones but people still go. Now I talk to people that I’ve known of for years yet never took the time out of my deserted schedule to actually speak to them; and people used to be my world, but now I wouldn’t even look at them in the street. For the first time in years I have no compass. I have no idea which way to go or what to search for because everything is toppling around me, three of my four life factors are slowly being crushed before me leaving me helpless. Everything I’ve reached for melted in front of me and the occasional ones that didn’t; weren’t what I wanted. Education bores me, but it is necessary and seems to be the only path that is staying stable. So I ask this; where do I go? Because I am lost.

>G

Why I Love You.







I love you.
I love you because you're warm.
I love you because you're there.
I love you because you stay with me.
I love you because you make me laugh.
I love your smile.
I love your eyes.
I love your dimples.
I love your arms.
I love your torso.
I love your legs.
I love the way you hold my hand.
I love the way you stroke my hair.
I love the way you stop my tears.
I love how you laugh.
I love how you walk.
I love how you look at me when you think I'm not looking.
I love how you love my family.
I love how you love my habits.
I love how you don't care if I'm in a mood.
I love how you stand on the outside of the pavement, and keep me on the inside.
I love all of you.
Unconditionally, and unchangeably.
~H